...trying out gratitude to fight the funk

11:35:00 PM

Can you spot me on the cover?

I am having one of those evenings. 

The ones one would rather erase from their calendars and definitely not blog about. 

It's been a long day for me, a long couple of days if I am to be sincere...like really looooong. I think today was the climax of them all, spent most of it crying, then slept through the other half of it, tried watching some crime episodes on YouTube and checking on some of my fav people. 

I am tired, like really really tired. 

I have been tired for a minute. 

There has been a cloud hovering around. I hadn't noticed before but this morning, when I couldn't get round to my schedule. 

I decided to respond to emails instead, that's when it hit me.

My inbox. 

With loads of emails on depression and suicide. 

That is the trigger. 

At first I thought I could hack it but it's just too too much so I have stepped back. 

I am going through my material. 

I am looking for tips. Then I remembered, a few weeks ago, a fellow mental health crusader from New York,  Dior Vargas asked me contribute to a campaign by Project UROK where people share tips and advice about self-care and developing coping skills. When I shared, little did I know I'd be reaching out for these same tips to keep my head above water...desperately reaching out.

Self-care is about doing the things that make your heart and mind smile says Sitawa Wafula of My Mind My Funk. She recommends writing, doing puzzles, and coloring. Comment to tell us what makes your heart and mind smile. #resilience #mentalwellness #mentalhealthrecovery #selfcarematters #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealthrecovery #selfcaretips #mentalhealth #selfcare #wellness #mentalillness #endthestigma #storiesbreakstigma #youarenotalone #wearyourlabel #itsoktonotbeok #mentalhealthawareness #selflove #wellnessjourney #tipsforlife #selfloveisthebestlove #lovethyself #healthymindhealthybody #selfcareisnotselfish #selfhealing #mentalhealthresource #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #stopthestigma [IMAGE DESCRIPTION: a pink heart and brain smiling and holding hands on a graphic that asks, "What makes your heart and mind smile?" Following graphics list ideas, such as writing, puzzles, and coloring. The end graphic reads "Share what keeps your heart and mind smiling. Comment below."]
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 I have settled for gratitude...and writing. 

I am writing a gratitude list. 

I am doing a list of things I am grateful for as part of my quest to make my mind and heart smile. 

I am trying out some gratitude just to fight the funk. 

I am looking at the positive side of life. I am well aware it's not that simple and automatic but hey, a girl's got to try and keep her head above water.

My novel prep notes
1. I am grateful that I began the Novel Writing Challenge  on November 1st. It has not been smooth but I am grateful I began and cannot wait to share the first progress report on Tuesday (when Week 1 officially ends)

2. I am grateful and honored that African Women's Development Fund featured me their Women Leading Africa publication. Got a few copies at my postal box. If you'd like a copy, email me.

3. I am grateful for the inspiration I got from this video from the  MOTH UN showcase I was part of in September. I think it gave me a push to do this post. 

I can't promise I will do some coloring or any puzzles as shown in the project RU OK instagram page (head out and follow the page).

I know I might cry a little more, maybe watch youtube videos till I fall asleep but my prayer this evening is for my heart and mind to smile again and even when things are hard, I still strive for the silver lining through small acts like a gratitude list...take good care of yourselves Sweetlings

Watch my YouTube video on creating a coping mechanisms toolbox

Sending love and light,

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